Farewell, Pauli.

mh434

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I lost my beloved Pauli a few weeks ago. I rescued him when he was about 7 years old, and was near death, lying in the bottom of a cage, unable to rise. He had been adopted as a very young bird by a man in his 90's, a bit of a hermit who spoke no English, and who had no inkling of the special needs of parrots, much less Amazons. When the old man died, no one found him for weeks and, of course, Pauli had been without food or water for all that time. As it turns out, the old man had only ever fed Pauli hamster food (that's all there was in the extra bird food dishes, and there were bags of it in the apartment).

It took a long time to nurse Pauli back to (apparent) health, but after a while he was plagued with weird ailments. At one point, he went blind, with profound cataracts (confirmed by three bird eye specialists). I made arrangements for eye surgery for him but, strangely, the cataracts disappeared over a few weeks! I was able to speak to one of the world's premiere bird eye specialists who, luckily, makes occasional visits to my area, and she confirmed that 1) He had had severe cataracts, and 2) this was the first recorded instance of recovery & regaining sight without surgery.

Unfortunately, his early lack of nutrition led to other issues including gout, which made one foot clench into a claw and the other open like a spread hand. He could not perch, and we had to make a special bed for him to lie on without putting pressure on his keel.

In the end, his kidneys and liver shut down and, despite increasing doses of strong pain killers and weekly vitamin A injections etc. at the vet, he reached the point where we could not control his pain. Even then, though, he was still a spectacularly beautiful boy.

I will never forget the look in his eyes on his last day. I don't know that I'll ever get over the horror and doubt of our last decision, or the vacant space in my heart that he filled with his happy cooing and trilling.

Farewell, little Pauli. We will meet again.
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Amanda_Bennett

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So sorry to hear your heart wrenching story! I'm glad he had you and knew love and care in his final days.
 

Dopey

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Sorry for the loss of your fid. I hope you find comfort knowing that you gave him a great life for several years.
 

Birdman666

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That bird looks just like my Lila.

Sorry for your loss. Sorrier still that the bird had to suffer all those ailments because humans didn't understand his nutritional needs.
 

JerseyWendy

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I am so sorry for your loss. :( Your unconditional love for Pauli shines through loud and clear, as does the pain you are feeling.

Many hugs to you!
 

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I'm sorry that you lost your friend and that he didn't get to have a full, healthy life like you tried so hard to give him. Parrots have such an ability to connect and feel our love, and Pauli got to have that love in his life, until his last day. RIP
 

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So sorry for your loss. What a beautiful and sweet looking bird he was. Story was heartbreaking, but good memories now.
 

Betrisher

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What a little fighter he was and how lucky that you found each other! Sending warmest hugs to you tonight. XX
 

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So sorry for the passing of Pauli

He sure had a wonderful 7 years living with a loving and wonderful guardian

R.I.P. Pauli

FLY FREE
 

goalerjones

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Sorry mh, the pain and the memory of that look will fade away into just the memories of your love for him.
 

Kiwibird

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I am so sorry for your loss of Paulie:( He sounds like he was a delightful little bird, and I'm sure, will always be remembered fondly.
 

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RIP Gandalf and Big Bird, you are missed.
So sorry Pauli passed away despite your loving efforts. The last two sentences of your post poignantly showcase the deep love we have for our feathered family and the grief that ensues when they pass. Yet it is tempered by the hope for a reunion, in some fashion, that comports with a wide variety of belief systems.
 

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I am so sorry for your loss of Pauli:(
I am so happy that he had you in his life to show him what love is, and that he had you and your family there at the end. My heart breaks for you:(
 

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My sincere condolences for your loss of beautiful Pauli. I'm so glad you were there for him after he had been through so much. I know he felt your love for him every day that he shared your home. My thoughts are with you.
 

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what a beautiful bird! So sorry to hear about his passing. thank you for giving him a loving home.
 
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mh434

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Yellow-naped Amazon "Sammy"
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Green-cheeked Conure "Skittles" - now, sadly gone from my life
Blue-Crowned Conure "Tequila"
African Grey "Reno" - sadly, now gone from my life
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Even though I'm a "big strong man", tears still come to my eyes when I look at his picture, his favorite toys, or his empty cage. How can we possibly become so attached? I'm still glad we do, though - I wouldn't have traded one second of my time with Pauli for anything.

He's buried under a brand new fruit tree, so in a way, he will live on physically, as well as in my heart.
 

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