Desperately need to talk to someone

Aspie_Aviphile

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Please could anyone who understands the depth of love we have for parrots please talk to me about the tragedy I just experienced, and which was a mixture of freak accident and horrible judgment by me. I don't know how I'm going to move on from this and want to make sense of what he probably was thinking afterwards and if he knew I was there and loved him when he passed. If anyone has good understanding of parrot psychology and reasoning. Please could someone talk to me via Skype or by regular phone (I'm in England but would do the calling if it can't be Skype for some reason).

Sorry I cant bring myself to type out what happened. Especially if anyone has specific experience with IRN psychology that would be even better. Thank you very much in advance.
 

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Chamomile tea contains ingredients proven to soothe nerves.

Doing yoga can reslse emotions trapped in your body.

Meditate it's a powerful thing.

Excerise, moving the body helps move the mind.

Engage in an activity that requires focus, perhaps art, poetry, music, or dance, cross stiching, puzzles.

Find a way to give back. Volunteer, help a freind, read for the blind, visit a home for the elderly, walk dogs at shelter, pick up Garbage at a park, lake, beach , or in your neighborhood..do some for wildlife, plant flowers for pollinator, plant a berry bush for birds, put up a nest box.

When you find yourself in circular negative thought, make an effort to stop yourself.

If you practice religion, vist and ask for prayers and a blessing.

Find small projects around the home and tackle them one at a time.

Get up early and go somewhere pretty to watch the sunrise. Take time to watch the sunsets. I find sunrise so moving.

Bake some cookies, or brownies, take them to your job to shared, or to a nursing home, or to a friend.

Acknowledge that you made mistakes, I too have made mistakes. I post here as a way of atoning. Find a way to atone. Giving back in anyway can make you feel balanced. Rember you are more good than bad.

You are not alone, we care, there are many people in your life who care.

Much love to you my friend.
 
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If you find the following helpful, I will be happy to Skype with you.

FYI: I believe that it is always, appropriate to develop a comfort regarding a first communication and to that end, I would recommend that you contact one of the Moderators first to determine /confirm that I'm real and trustworthy.

We have long been a home that older Amazons came to be loved and recover from serious ill, abuse, and abandonment. The reality of Loving this special group of Amazons is that they tend to pass far too early, our goal is that they know abiding Love and in turn created wonderful forever homes in our hearts.

I offer you this Segment (Pray): “Passing of a Feathered Friend,”


As this Thread may likely exist far beyond my involvement in All Things Amazon. I believe that like the leading Segment of this Thread, a lasting testimony (Pray) to the Amazons that have shared our home, expanded our Love, and Understanding of Amazons should be part of this work.

It is not an issue of not wanting to visit and more importantly providing words of support as part of the Bereavement Forum, but my own difficultly in fully facing our many losses over the years. It is a reality of what we have committed ourselves too and each loss returns us to that clarity. When one opens their home to the very sick and very poorly cared for, losses are part of the commitment. I ask not forgiveness, but understanding of not often enough in sharing your grief. For those of you who loss a Loving Feather Family Member, I offer you this Pray “Passing of a Feathered Friend,” that we provide our Loved Ones!

This Segment is Rated: To be Read in the company of close Friends and Family.


May Pease find and stand with you as part of your loss my friends…




Passing of a Feathered Friend
Provided By: Steven (SailBoat), November 2016


“All of us feel such deep sadness when our Parrot friends die, and because they are Animals and not Humans, we are at a loss for words. Often, it is only other Parrot owners who can understand the depth of the loss that we feel with this complex, loyal, and loving creature. Resulting from such a loss, I have placed feelings and emotions into words and found verse to console the loss of my Cleo and since her, other sweet Amazons, in turn; I hope it will speak for all of you.” - Steven


You left this world so quickly. I can hardly comprehend your leaving. Yet there, in my hands, your still body rested — no longer your home. So much I have learned, so much you have taught, your purpose a full measure beyond your size. Comprehensions of your loss still a mist but yet, I know you are whole and happy - now beyond Rainbow Bridge. And so busy you must be upon your green wings, guiding angles to those of us yet to cross. With in my ear, I still hear you, those special sweet sounds of comfort and contentment:


“Do not stand by my grave and weep my friend.
I am not here. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the gentle summer rain.
When you wake in the morning hush, I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry my friend.
I am not there. I did not die.”

My pray for you my beloved feathered friend:

“May your body nourish this earth.
May your soul find release and contentment.
May you fly high and free upon wings of spirit.
Rest in peace little green one.”

The love and tender warmth of you is a un-full-fill-able void.
I do so much thank-you for creating a space for another, a special place next to yours’.

In remembrance of Cleo, (Estimated) Spring 1959 - May 2003

Amazon’s Have More Love!

Sources: Cheyenne Warrior Blessing, The Amazona Society’s Forum, Steven (SailBoat)
 

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We all know how you feel and share in your sorrow and pain.
 

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I’m so sorry for your loss - hugs to you.
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss.

If it makes you feel any better, we have heard it all here so don't feel like you will be judged or ridiculed. Accident happen, and all we can do it learn from it so it won't happen again. And I really do mean we've heard it all -- freak accidents by ceiling fan, windows, wax, oil, ovens, other pets fatally injuring birds including other birds, rats, snakes, dogs and cats. We really do understand. This is a judgement free zone and most of us have experienced loss in the same way. I lost one of my hens last year and found her dead sitting on her eggs. Just broke my heart but sadly it just happens sometimes.

We support you!
 
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I’m so very sorry to hear about your loss through what must have been a terrible accident. I know how important your birds are to you and to lose one in these circumstances is devastating. In many ways they are so resilient yet so fragile and as much as we try to be careful in every conceivable way sometimes the unthinkable happens. It is now 534 days since I lost my heart-bird Baci and although I can give the outward impression that I’m functioning i still cannot speak or write about him without dissolving into a crying mess.

All I can say to you is that you can get through this. You must try to be kind to yourself even though you may feel you are to blame, but we know you and certainly will not blame you. For many of us our birds are better than family because they love us unconditionally and do not judge, so it’s just that much harder when we lose them. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and never be afraid to reach out for help, your forum family will always be here for you. I’m sending the warmest of feathered hugs to you.
 

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My deepest condolences for a tragic loss. You need not specify the details, know you are in company of many with similar experience. Please do not confine your feelings, express them to trusted listeners. Grieving has no timeline or specific end. When the bright memories of your alexandrine overshadow despair, great progress will have been accomplished. We never forget.....
 

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Aspi Aviphile,
How are you do today? We haven't heard back from you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.
My phone is still broke, and I don't have internet, or I'd offer to chat.
 
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Aspi Aviphile,
How are you do today? We haven't heard back from you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.
My phone is still broke, and I don't have internet, or I'd offer to chat.

Thanks, I'm in contact with two forum members, but I feel like I can't possibly talk to enough people at the moment. I've used both the UK's animal bereavement helplines and will probably keep calling them a lot too. I've been speaking to friends who knew Bo in person at least a little bit. I can get some brief relief with practical or entertainment distractions, and once the evening before last I was able to talk about him fondly to a friend without crying and thought I might actually survive this psychologically, life might feel worth living again one day, but the rest of the time I'm in a pit.
 

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I can get some brief relief with practical or entertainment distractions, and once the evening before last I was able to talk about him fondly to a friend without crying and thought I might actually survive this psychologically, life might feel worth living again one day, but the rest of the time I'm in a pit.

I would suggest you have made subtle progress. One day you will remember Bo with far more fondness than sadness and despair. The path of grieving is long but you have benefited from the first few steps. I hope this is affirmation of your efforts.
 

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I'm glad to hear you have resources to help with greif. We on the forum honor the bond one has with parrots, and understand the impact the loss of our parrot freinds have on our life.

Not long ago a member posted about a loss of her parrot freinds. It happened to be on the same day I was really grieving over my baby that had died a year earlier. I finally cried it out, sharing with her and other posters who had recently or previously lost beloved parrots.

I hope you find peace with the situation. Big hugs.
 

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Just checking in with you again. Wanted you to know I was thinking about you , and hoping you are finding peace and the greif isn't so sharp.
 

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