They say that the flame that burns twice as bright, burns only half as long.
From the day I brought her home I knew that Lilly would break my heart, I just hoped that it wouldn't be so soon. She was the little green angel who came into my life when I needed her the most, and she made me happy when nothing else could. She lived a life that was full of love, and her time with me was the greatest gift that I ever could have asked for. Now I am broken hearted again and can only hope that the memory of the love, laughter and joy that we shared will carry me through losing her.
Many of you will know how hyper-broody Lilly got during her annual breeding season. She was recently diagnosed with egg yolk peritonitis and, despite various examinations and treatments, follow up blood tests showed that the uric acid output from her kidneys was consistently increasing to dangerous levels, meaning she was heading for renal failure. She had surgery on January 13, but my sweet baby girl suffered heart arrhythmia while she was sedated. While she survived the procedure, she crashed upon recovery and died, despite the vet’s desperate efforts to save her. For the record, he is mortified about it too.
It was my honour, privilege and blessing to have been your mum even for such a short time, my sweet, fuzzy, vicious and violent, but oh so funny little girl. My pain and grief is the price that I must pay for having loved you so very much, but it’s worth it to have had you in my life. I endure it willingly and I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. For you, my precious girlie, my Crown Princess, my lovely Lilly Pilly.
Godspeed to the Rainbow Bridge, my tiny green angel. I hope that there are endless bouquets of flowers filled with sweet nectar for you to graze upon up there in Heaven, my precious one. Your mummy and dadda will always, *always* love you.
"Do you know that I love you?
Do you know it for sure?
Do you know that I'll keep you
in my heart forevermore?"