Lost my buddy.

[itsnic]

I am so glad I found you guys. 2 days ago we lost our little ray of sunshine, Mango very unexpectedly. She was a 3 year old Sun Conure and I literally spent more time with her than anyone except my son...including my boyfriend. She did everything with me when I was in the house. The only time she was in her cage was at night to sleep and while I was at work. As soon as I walked in the door, she always came straight to meand stayed on my shoulder until it was time for me to go to bed at night. I don't understand what could have happened, she seemed fine and then she started acting very sleepy and wobbly and within an hour she couldn't even stand up. She just seemed to drift off to sleep until the very end, my son held her in his hands while we stroked her and cried. At the last second, she suddenly started breathing very heavy, she tightened her grip on his finger for a split second, flapped her wings twice and then it was over.
We are both so devastated by this loss. It's hard to understand how such a small body can hold such a huge personality and have such a grip on our heart. Our house seems so still and quiet now...and we have 3 dogs and an African Grey. This is truly the most I have ever mourned the loss of a pet and I know that no one that has never experienced the friendship of of one of these little guys can understand like you guys can.
Thank you for listening..I needed to get it off my chest and I start crying every time my son and I talk about her...he is going to start thinking I am nuerotic soon..lol. I just miss her so much, I feel lost.

 

[JerseyWendy]

I am so very sorry for your sudden loss of Mango. Your post has me all choked up.

HUGS to both you and your son!

Cry as much as you need to, don't hold it in. We feel your sorrow, and your love for Mango shines through loud and clear.

Fly free you little sunshine Angel.

 

[Christinenc2000]

I am so sorry but you are right you came to the right place. A lot of members have lost and felt the way you do. Makes me so sad. Jersey is right just cry all you want .

 

[labell]

I am so sorry for you and your family! We all understand here how much these feathered babies work their way into our hearts so don't hesitate to cry and ask for support. You will get it and no one here will think you're neurotic.

 

[Terry57]

I am so sorry for your loss of the beautiful Mango I am also so glad you found us here, as I think most of us have lost one of our beloved fids in the past, and we understand the pain and misery you are gong through. I am heartbroken for you, and you are in my thoughts.

 

[itsnic]

Thank all of you for your kind words. I buried her with pretty sunsplash tulips planted on her grave and a little cross and I could tell that made my son feel better. I am sure I looked like a crazy person to my neighbors drinking wine, crying and planting flower bulbs in December when I should have been at work but when my son got home from school and I was able to show him what I did for her, it seemed like it worked wonders for him.

 

[Terry57]

It sounds like you made a beautiful memorial for her. I am gad it seemed to help your son as well, and if the neighbours can't understand grief, then I would not even worry about them.

 

[RavensGryf]

I'm very sorry to hear this news . The fact that this was unexpected adds the additional shock to the extreme sorrow. I understand. I've been through it as have many of us here, so you're not alone.

 

[Christinenc2000]

It sounds like you made a beautiful memorial for her. I am gad it seemed to help your son as well, and if the neighbours can't understand grief, then I would not even worry about them.

I agree 100 %

 

[Birdman666]

This sounds like some sort of a toxic exposure event.

Strangers never get to see the interaction and the love we see..

If it isn't "your bird" you're not gonna get it. I lost three conures in my lifetime, including my uber-bonded sun conure... So I know exactly what you mean! They are such loving, happy-go-lucky creatures

Mine was free flighted, and flew in low across the parking lot, right in front of a car! I watched it happen... It's been more than 7 years since that happened, and I still miss the little bird that lived inside my shirt.

 

[Scott]

Very sorry to hear you lost Mango. She was a stunningly beautiful member of your family. Please continue to memorialize Mango in any manner that feels right while you are grieving. I hope your African Grey can bring some comfort.

 

[itsnic]

Oh birdman..you made me cry at work with that picture...now I have to sneak out the back door so no one see me.

 

[itsnic]

Scott, I am hoping my Mr. Greyson doesn't think he is in the queue to disappear next..he hasn't been quite as vocal the last couple days and he has gone back to an old habit that he had when we first adopted him of closing his door, with him on the inside. I normally leave his door open all the time when I am in the house and he hasn't done that since we first rescued him. I don't think he was particularly fond of Mango since she liked to sit on top of his cage to poop but he hasn't been nearly as chatty since she has been gone.

Birdman..it DID seem like she was exposed to something but she was within sight of me or my son the whole timeand there were no chemicals out anywhere and neither one of us saw her eat anything. After the fact, we were talking and there were a couple times that we saw her kind of **** up her feathers in a strange sort of way that we wondered if maybe it was a problem with an egg being bound up in her? But it still seemed so sudden and she didn't act like she was in pain, except that last second when she actually passed. The other thing I keep wondering, I had dinner in the oven, possibly the pan that I was cooking in had a Teflon coating? I have tried to look up everything possiblity I can find but it seems like I have found way more people that this has happened to than I have reasons why. It makes me afraid to get another bird, to get so attached to a pet that can die so suddenly. I already have found that I have been checking on Mr. G slightly obsessively..at least with my dogs it's pretty obvious if something is wrong.

 

[PetoftheDay]

The tulip bulbs are perfect, as you will think of her every spring when they bloom! If you have squirrels though, add a couple daffodil bulbs - they don't get eaten like tulip bulbs might!

 

[faeryphoebe1]

(((hugs))) I am so sorry. They really do steal our hearts and never let go.

RIP Mango.

 

[Allee]

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Mango. As others have said, sadly many of us have experienced grief for the little ones we have been lucky enough to share our lives with. I think your tribute was beautiful and very touching, thank you for sharing. You were saying goodby to your beloved friend and at the same time trying to ease your son's pain. Sounds like you were listening to your heart to me. If anyone had a problem with that, the fault is not yours. Mango was lucky to have been so loved.

Fly free little one.

 

[goalerjones]

Could have been a stroke, a heart issue, liver, etc. best thing to do moving forward is to take a deceased bird to an avian vet after they pass for a necropsy. My vet said that even if they've been buried for a little bit they can still get results because the ground acts as an insulator.

 

[itsnic]

oh gosh, I really don't think I could go back and dig her back up...that would be so traumatic for both of us.

 

[Shoegoo]

Sorry to hear of your loss.

 

[goalerjones]

oh gosh, I really don't think I could go back and dig her back up...that would be so traumatic for both of us.

No, that's ok. I did actually do that after my first bird died suddenly. But knowing what happened is always best. If I did something wrong, I want to know how to fix it. If it was something like a birth defect, then I know I couldn't have done anything more. Closure is a very good thing when it comes to losing a bird.