Forever in my heart Buster

[Amandastander]

I feel like the worst pet owner on earth! I lost my Busty Boy yesterday! He was basking in the sun, I quickly left the room upon returning he was gone, I searched and called for him, I found him outside in the dogs kennel, alive but seriously injured. Don't know how they got him, after his scare he never went close to the gate, the sun must have been more appealing than usual and he must have decided to go closer : ( . We wrapped him and gave him a tonic for nervous system support, he calmed down and even walked around a bit. As soon as my husband came from work we took him to the vet for an examination, we suspected a broken wing. The vet said nothings broken and after a thorough examination said Buster has bad internal bruising, we should continue to keep him warm, he gave him a Baytril injection and a Prednisolone injection, we got home, he had some water, fiddled in the basket a bit, and had a long sleep which seemed to be his most pain free sleep since the incident. Upon waking, he looked for me, happy when he saw me, I stroked his head, he made himself comfortable, lifted his one wing, looked at me again, and then he was gone!!! I was so optimistic that he would recover. My hearts broken and yes, I completely blame myself and always will. I feel like getting rid of all my animals and I feel completely incompetent. He was a rescue and made amazing progress, last week he approached me for the first time and stepped up onto my hand. Will always remember him, saying to himself Busty gooood boy! Singing himself to sleep with dudu baba dudu busty, peeking at me in the mornings from under the cage cover saying a perky hello. This is so hard. Busty, I love you always, and always will, I can never forgive myself for not being there in those few seconds to protect you. And yes, Busty, you are a goood boy. Love you my Busty baby

 

[Wings]

oh...my...god... I'm so sorry this happened to you! Believe me, stop saying "I will always blame myself", because it makes the pain worse. It really isn't your fault. Everyone makes mistakes, please don't pin it on yourself. I am sorry for your loss, but don't sell your other animals, they love you so much and know what you are going through. They will comfort you. My deepest condolences, <3

 

[MikeyTN]

I'm very sorry to hear that but you must be strong for your other animals. I know it's hard to accept right now but you must. I lost one of my birds to my dog and I blame myself for a very very long time and I was heart broken. But I had to be strong for my other babies cause I know they needed me especially some were on meds and I had to care for them. But I broke down when I'm out of the house and I started crying away. Have a good cry!!!! I totally feel your pain but it's a mistake and we will always remember never to repeat it again. I wish you well!!!!

 

[Amandastander]

He was the best little boy I could ask for. This is so hard for me. And Piper keeps calling out his name looking for him. I don't know how I am going to pack up his cage and toys : (. Oh God, nothing I think or say or do can change that I wasn't there when he needed my protection. I have failed him in the worst possible way. I honestly don't know what to say. The dogs I don't even want to see, I am so disappointed in myself

 

[MikeyTN]

I know the feeling....I didn't want to be around my dog what so ever but I did rescue him and he was ill so I had no choice but to give him his meds on a daily basis and took care of him. It took me a long long time to get over it...It's not easy I know but you eventually have to forgive yourself and your dog! Just remember it is their natural instinct!

 

[lotosha]

That's so sad, sorry for your lost.

 

[JerseyWendy]

Oh my gosh, I am SO SO sorry for your loss.

PLEASE stop blaming yourself. Accident can happen!!

Many many hugs to you!!!

 

[ruffledfeathers]

So sorry!! Your story just made me cry for you. What a terrible feeling, but your bird passed away peacefully, with you, not alone or suffering. It was just a horrible accident and honestly it could have happened to most any of us!!

 

[Betrisher]

Oh Amandastander! Buster could have had a much worse outcome than he did! You took care of him and tried your very best to help him (and you *did* help him and he knew it!) Instead of focussing on the horrible accident, try to be happy that Buster came into your life at all. For reasons we don't understand, fate had decided this was his time and so he passed. Before that, you were his loving companion who made a huge difference in his life. I see so many good things that happened for both of you because you managed to meet. Do try and focus on those!

None of us can foresee an accident. You can beat yourself over the head with 'what ifs', but the fact remains, you're not magic and the awful thing happened despite your usual vigilance. Sending warm hugs to you tonight from me and my flock. XXOO

Rest in peace, little Buster. You were a good bird!

 

[Birdlover11]

So sorry for your loss , I am on the edge of crying . I know the feeling , I always have dreams like that and when I wake up I am shaking scared and crying . I always run downstairs to check on them and find out its just a dream . Again I am SO sorry for your loss . But you have to be strong for your other fids , fate just decided its his time to go, I'm sure he's in a better place right now . You did your part , you rescued him , loved him , and even almost saved him when you found him . You took to the vet , gave him vaccines , and watched him . That smile you saw was a smile of happiness , comfort , that he was saved by such a caring owner that would do this for him instead of being left to die outside . Don't be sad , be even stronger .

 

[aliray]

My deepest sympathies on the loss of your beloved Buster. Accidents happen to all of us at one time or another. It will get better in time. My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

 

[chippy]

I am SO very sorry...i know how difficult this is for you, having lost my baby Wilbur to our dog earlier this year. I have no words of wisdom for you, but my heart goes out to you. (((hugs)))

 

[Amandastander]

Thank you to all of you for your kind words. I will always miss him dearly. So does Piper. With all the sadness I'm feeling I still yesterday went and took in a cockatiel baby that's in a bad way(neglect) and I believe he will help keep my mind busy, I just couldn't leave him there. As for my dogs, I am going to put a net up on the security gate. I have also moved my fids into my bedroom where they are further away from the dogs. Thank all of you guys so much for your love and support.

 

[BirdyMomma]

It will be three weeks tomorrow, that I lost my beautiful baby Amazon, Bacci, to my dogs. The guilt is immeasurable. I feel so bad for you, because I know EXACTLY how you feel, and it is just a nightmare. I will never not blame myself. I hope you have strong, understanding people around you. My amazing boyfriend, who was Bacci's Birdy Daddy and our other baby bird are the ONLY things that have made life bearable for me. I wish you the best, and if you need anyone to talk to, who completely understands what you are going through, you can always message me.

 

[MikeyTN]

I lost one of my babies to one of my dogs too....it happened right in front of me and I couldn't save him..... I'm very sorry for your baby!!!!!!

 

[crimson]

I am so sorry for your loss! you just never know if and when some accident will happen...speaking from experience.

Accidents are just that, an accident, and you blaming yourself will not help you heal.

It's the process of going thru the agony of loosing a pet.

It will get better, and easier in time, you know what they say 'time heals all wounds'....now I'm not sure if that is true or not, but with time the pain does subside, but we will never forget.

 

[WannaBeAParrot]

I'm sad for your loss. Please please please, stop telling yourself that you are to blame. You must stop. It was an accident. YOu had nothing but love for Buster. That's what you have to tell yourself so that you can move past this and be with your other birds and family. Please don't be so hard on yourself.

 

[Terry57]

I am so sorry for your loss My heart is breaking for you.