Hi everyone
Unfortunately I had to euthanize Blu on Christmas. He needed another visit to urgent care after he had some more sticky droppings and lost a lot of weight. We put him back on Sucrulfate and started Gabapentin and he gained some weight back after 2 days. We spent those days together quite a bit, sitting outside, watching tv, and just chilling. On Christmas I woke him up and found him sitting at the bottom of his cage. He refused all food and water, and I knew it was his time to go. I had an at home euthanasia and had the other birds present in the room with me. I held him as his cries slowly faded from the sedative and he passed away in my hands.
We believe he passed from some sort of a GI issue, be it cancer, pancreatitis or some sort of ulceration. The vet ruled out all treatable illnesses and we moved him to palliative care for the end of his life which is the most I could do for him. He let me hold, cuddle and pet him for long periods of time, which tells me he is unwell because he wasnt the most snuggly budgie.
I'm very broken up about this but im happy I no longer need to see him suffering. These were a long 3 months. He was the sweetest boy ever and it was so hard to watch him suffer. Bijou keeps looking for him in the cage but I think he is starting to understand that Blu is gone. The birds have been leaning heavily on me for social interaction. They seem lonely but are enjoying each other's company more than usual. I am going to get another bird at some point but I'm not ready. I still havent changed his cage papers out because I know how difficult it will be to finally leave that cage empty.
Thank you all for the support and giving me an outlet here. Every Christmas I'm going to dedicate to remembering him. I'm looking forward to receiving the ashes (however little there is) and having some closure.