Freedom is gone

[bug_n_flock]

It was fast. I couldn't post right away when it happened, I'm still kind of in denial? Idk if that's the right word. Every time I see her empty cage it's a jolt to my system, but I can't bring myself to take it apart just yet. I've thought about selling or giving it away, or maybe just taking it apart and storing it somewhere for now. I know there will be another large bird in my future, but I don't know how soon I'll be ready for that. Probably not for a while tho.

I don't "know" what was the cause, but I do know she had a history of very poor care three homes before mine. She had a few feathers the wrong color on her wings which is saying to me it was some kind of organ failure. The night before she passed I could tell something wasn't right, but I wasn't able to get her to a vet before she was gone.

We got six and a half wonderful years together, but I had hoped for so much more time together than that.

I have her body in the freezer for now, and I will be burying her in the spring when the ground thaws.

I am glad that one of her final meals was one of her favorite meals- pasta slathered in the red stuff

I miss her fruity excitement smell so much

This... Is the first place I've been able to say this even. There is nobody in my life to even tell that she is gone. Probably part of why it doesn't feel fully real, these are the first words I've put together about her being gone.

And now I am sobbing. I guess it's real now.

 

[GivemeSeedsorgivemeFlesh]

I'm so sorry for your loss!!

 

[nkrbkr]

Oh no. I’m so sorry to hear that.

 

[RavensGryf]

I’m so sorry to hear of your loss

 

[LaManuka]

Oh bug, Freedom was blessed to spend her golden years with you, but what a shock! My most heartfelt condolences are with you, I'm so sorry for your loss

 

[texsize]

I am so sorry.
It does take time to heal.

 

[DonnaBudgie]

Tell us more about Freedom. I know she was a B&G, but not just any B&G- she was special and you loved her very much. She was lucky to have been your birdchild and will not be forgotten. Grief is tough. It can seem to go on and on and on but eventually it doesn't sting as much to think of your lost loved ones, human or animal.

Please post some photos. Some say making a photo album of you pet after they pass is a good way to honor their memory. My heart goes out to you for your loss. Give yourself a hug from me and my flock.

 

[Macawdamia Nut]

How heartbreaking! I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[wrench13]

My deepest condolences, bugs. Been there, I know how it hurts.

 

[Vampiric_Conure]

**HUGE HUGE HUGE Hugs**