Goodbye Kiwi.

FA22raptero

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Kiwi was the most amazing character in an animal I have ever known. I adopted her after she'd been through a series of homes, and hoped to give her stability. Kiwi also pulled me through in some of the hardest times of my life by giving me love and affection whenever I needed it.

I moved back home, and when she came into my family they fell in love with her as well. We soon purchased another bird (because Kiwi does have a VISOUS bite, and hated children and most women) (a baby) and they grew together. They were a beautiful pair, and the family dynamic we had was crazy awesome. They would fly around the house together in tandem, and coming to visit when they got bored of each others company.

They also knew about windows. Both of them. Kiwi, in all the 10 months she'd been flying in our house, had never once flew into one. She's come close, and then turned around. She knew what they were, and my research indicated that birds know where windows are. But then we clipped Mango's wings (the other) and I feel like it really threw kiwi off. Mango would try to fly, and then she would try to fly and get confused. She hit the window once. She was alright, so we laughed it off and left her alone. I left the room. Then a loud flap, a second quieter flap, and BANG Kiwi hit. I could tell right away things were not alright. I won't go into the details, but if there is one thing I regret, I wish I hadn't tried to rush her to the vet. I knew as soon as I saw that she was gone, but I went into first aid mode, and put her in a firm dark box to help support her neck, got in the car and drove 4 minutes to the vet. She died in the car, alone, in a box. I know that dark boxes calm them down, so that was the logic there, but really, I should have just helped her through it. The vet pronounced her dead.

It was tragic, but I still hold quite firm that had I clipped Kiwi's wings, it would have been the end of her. She was so independent, and taking away her freedom would have been a wrong step I feel. As I continue to research it now, I still feel like wing clipping is not necessary, but I want to better learn how to prevent accidents like this. Perhaps if you all have insight or opinions, I'd love to hear it. Thanks for your support, and sorry for the long read.
 
FA22, I am so sorry for the loss of Kiwi - losing a beloved pet is always difficiult, and when that bond is especially strong for a particular pet, it is even more difficult.
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. Tragic accident and I hope you find it in your heart to come to peace with that.

RIP Kiwi
 
I am so sorry for your loss of Kiwi.
 
Oh man, that's just so sad :( Deepest sympathies for your loss!
 
Having watched my little conure fly into the side of a car, and watched two amazons knock themselves senseless against a window... I can relate to your pain. Been there myself.

Sorry for your loss.
 
I don't Know what I would do if my Wink left.
I am so sorry to here about Kiwi.
I don't just want to say that because I know how hard it is to let a pet go. Once you've had a pet for a while, I know how you bond to it, you become best friends with it, it starts to develop a type of personality that you like and comforts you when times are rough. When I lost my dog Daisy I thought I'd never get over it. That was about 4 years ago and I still don't go a day without thinking what I could have done to save her.
Even though it is hard to get over a pet loss, it is possible and we all have to do it.
I am sorry to hear about Kiwi but I know that she is in a happier place now.
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Pm'd you. I am sorry for your loss.
 
Sorry for your loss... it's so gut-wrenching to lose a friend.
 
So terribly sorry for your loss. Having recently lost a precious bird myself, to an accident, I know how you feel. The nightmare replays in my head, over and over. I still can't wear a seatbelt in the car, because on the trip to the vet, it would hurt him, as I held him in my arms, and he would cry out.
Your other bird will help you get through this horrible time. Having my other bird to love, and having the responsibility of caring for her was the only thing that got me out of my bed each morning.
I have to say, that the kind words, encouragement, and comments from all of the people in this forum also helped me a lot. All these folks have had their hearts touched by birds, and their knowledge and understanding were, and continue to be a great source of comfort, and a tremendous resource.
Please continue to share your feelings, and your stories about Kiwi. It will help you to speak about it, and you can be sure that those of us who have lost our beloved little babies feel for you, and share your grief.
 
I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm tearing up just reading your post. Birds can not see windows. I have had several birds over the years fly into plate glass windows and even smaller windows from the outside because these were wild birds. So don't believe all the research you have found that indicates a bird can see clear glass windows. I would have to challenge that research.

It is best to leave opinions of right and wrong, wing clipping or not out of this thread which should soley used for grieving Kiwi and support for the OP. So please respect this.
 
I am so sorry for your loss:( It is so sad to lose a beloved member of the family.
 
Thank you everyone for your sympathies. I appreciate it.

I've chosen to use Kiwi's passing as an opportunity to be constructive. Perhaps I'm insensitive, or perhaps it's just the way I cope, but I am not very good at grieving. This doesn't apply to just Kiwi, it applies to all aspects of my life. Instead, I hope to provide Mango, who is now left alone, with an even better life, and future feathered friends with a more informed partner who is more skilled at how to properly take care of his flock. It is just unfortunate that I couldn't have learned these tools sooner.

Kiwi's passing has also taught me something else; that I don't think I will ever buy a baby bird (not that that is wrong). What made Kiwi special to me was that I got to take someone that nobody could love, and help her become an adored member of my family who was gentle, sweet, and almost human like. THAT SASS that she had. Damn. The attitude of a 14 year old teenager in Middle School, just starting to develop. Beautiful...

Thank you all for your grievances, and I wish you all a very happy holiday (or if you don't celebrate... winter season). Don't be sad for birds gone, but happy for birds here! In much the same way that you won't achieve happiness without a contrast of sadness, the most beautiful part about life, in some ways, is death.

-Cheers,
Nicholas
 
I'm so sorry for Kiwi's passing. :(
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. We just lost our baby a month ago to an accident, and I know how much it hurts. :(
 

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