I have a red crown parrot, i picked him up under a palm tree since he seemed to not be able to fly and it was near a busy intersection. I have been having him since July 2019. I had never had a bird when i took him in my dog had passed away the day before and my thought process was not about keeping the bird but rather helping an animal since i could no longer help my own. I hand feed him baby formula and watched/read many articles and videos about having a bird. Before i knew it i was attached and i bought him all the supplies he needed (a cage, toys, food and snacks, etc.). I would let him do wtv he wanted being that i just cant say no to animals but here i am almost 2 years later and i seem to have no patience at times. He spends his day flying free in my room and will only be put in his cage in the livingroom or at night (sleeps in my room). I cannot leave my room without him screaming even if ive been with him for hours and when i take him to the livingroom with me and my family he will scream 75% of the time which causes me to take him to my room. I’ve had to cover all my dressers and drawers and tv with towels bc he will destroy and bite wood, tv or anything i have out. I have thought about rehoming him for a while because maybe im not the best fit for him, there has to be someone out there that can give him a better life, maybe someone who has other birds/more experience. He can be soo sweet with me and will fly to me but theres times he will be very aggressive and scream and bites. I’ve thought of maybe going to a professional trainer that could possible help me and make things work with me and him. I love him dearly more than i ever thought i could love “a simple bird” and everytime i think about rehoming or i read others rehoming stories i simply break down in tears. The thought that what if someone else rehomes him or he becomes depressed roams through my mind or what if they treat him bad that would no longer be my place to have an opinion nor would i have knowledge being that id be doing the same (possible rehoming him) just breaks me. I try and have patience with him as much as i can but theres times where i just have to walk away. Ive only ever owned dogs and ive never given any pet ive had away not even have a thought about it and the fact that i do occasionally think about rehoming my parrot makes me feel like such an awful person. The thought that when i found him i should have taken him to a rescue place near me haunts me everyday. I dont know what to do, i would rather feel guilt and sadness of letting him go as long as i know he will be taken care of in ways that maybe i never could.