Neptune is lost

[LaManuka]

Laura did you say you are taking Penny with you and she and Neptune are calling to each other? It's great that you are still hearing him call! There is NO WAY you have ever let him down. Don't give up hope! I am sending every bit of positivity that i can over to you!!

 

[Laurasea]

Yesterday before the storm , I was in the trees I didn’t know a storm was coming, I had just got to the house I’ve been looking fir him at. I got out and he called penny answered they did this 4 times as I walked to wee I thought he was, I was there like a minute maybe two then this storm front crashed on us ...... lot of wind lightning and brief rain I went back after it was over went back and was there from 730 to 5 never heard him or saw him today
But there is breeding pair of hawks there with forged young the hawks all around me there it’s so terrible so terrified I don’t know what to do

 

[noodles123]

If there are so many hawks, he is probably laying low. I'm sorry though Or he may have even moved to one of his other spots if they are all over there (still probably very nearby)--but I doubt he would call back with a hawk in view.

 

[LaManuka]

Neptune has already shown amazing instincts to have come this far - he knows how to stay out of trouble. Don't despair Laura, I know how much you're hurting but I believe he will come home to you!

 

[Scott]

Please don't get discouraged, Laura. Every hour searching is time well spent. In the unlikely event you don't find him, you will have a small comfort knowing you did everything possible. Treat every day as a new search day.

 

[T00tsyd]

It is breakfast time here in the UK and once again I have logged on expecting Neptune to be home. No-one could ever accuse you of not trying, my goodness, you have done it all. So now it is only natural to despair and feel that nothing will work. Once again I advise you to stay calm. You must be feeling exhausted with the emotional upset as much as the effort but now is the time to dig deep.

I am sure you will go out again to search and when you do be calm, be confident and start afresh. We all understand just how hard this is for you, we are all rooting for you and Neptune. If as time goes by he chooses the free life rather than flying back to you it will not be your fault. If the very worst happens and he doesn't survive this experience it will not be your fault. Stay strong, you have done so well up to now, both Neptune and you deserve a little longer of trying to find each other.

 

[Anansi]

Laura, you've been doing everything right in terms of searching for him. I know it feels like everything is going wrong, because you keep missing where he was. But think about it. Why is it that you know approximately where he's been? How is it that you've been privy to news about so many of his sightings?

Because you've established a community network. You have everyone involved, looking out for Neptune and keeping you in the loop. In short, you've done everything that you need to do to find him. And while I know you are conflicted about potentially keeping him in an area where there are hawks, what would be the alternative? No, Laura. You are doing the right thing. If it had been Jolly or Maya lost in a similar situation, I promise you I'd be doing what you are doing now. Your best chance of reuniting with him is to follow his trail. To go wherever he's been.

And keep in mind, he's figured out a system for survival that has been working for him. Which means that wherever he is, he's found cover that keeps him safe... as well as a food source that keeps him fed.

Don't despair, my friend. Keep doing what you're doing. You've got a whole community here pulling for you both.

 

[T00tsyd]

I have come back each day in the hope of news. I am so sorry that there is none and assume that you are not reunited. My hope is that this is not the end of the story.

 

[Laurasea]

I’ve looked every day for a month ,,,,,,
I’ve never had a young healthy companion get lost or hurt or die......all of my pet friends lived full lives......
So the grief ,guilt , loss, I will never be the same person again, he wa the most special thing in my life
I can hope and I can keep looking.......
But the last place I heard him was a hawk laire

 

[T00tsyd]

I’ve looked every day for a month ,,,,,,
I’ve had a young healthy companion get lost or hurt or die......all of my pet friends lived full lives......
So the grief ,guilt , loss, I will never be the same person again, he wa the most special thing in my life
I can hope and I can keep looking.......
But the last place I heard him was a hawk laire

I'm so sorry.

 

[Laurasea]

Infect the most awful thing is, I went back after the rain storm to the spot I heard him , the hawk that is always in the yard was sitting in a stump right in front of the scrub and trees I heard him in..... I didn’t know what to do I should have flung my shoes st it and made it leave, but I was afraid I’d scare it to some place worse fir him so I left !!!! How horrible am I I !?! Then as I drive off a hawk flew over head caring a burd!!! But the light was aweful so I couldn’t see colors at all.....
So I’m left feeling I called him to his death left the killer right there and left my baby
So I failed him .... he hadn’t been heard or seen since, that’s what I have to live with
And it’s a veer hard thing to think I have nit been able to sleep mire than a few hours every night because of panic attack’s and nightmares
It’s very hard to get through each day,
I pray for a miracle a sighting or his return to me
I pray that instead of going thru the motions with my other babies that I can find joy in them again

 

[Jen5200]

I’m so sorry, I know that you are devastated with Neptune missing. Please let us know how we can help and support you. Hugs from me and my flock.

 

[T00tsyd]

Infect the most awful thing is, I went back after the rain storm to the spot I heard him , the hawk that is always in the yard was sitting in a stump right in front of the scrub and trees I heard him in..... I didn’t know what to do I should have flung my shoes st it and made it leave, but I was afraid I’d scare it to some place worse fir him so I left !!!! How horrible am I I !?! Then as I drive off a hawk flew over head caring a burd!!! But the light was aweful so I couldn’t see colors at all.....
So I’m left feeling I called him to his death left the killer right there and left my baby
So I failed him .... he hadn’t been heard or seen since, that’s what I have to live with
And it’s a veer hard thing to think I have nit been able to sleep mire than a few hours every night because of panic attack’s and nightmares
It’s very hard to get through each day,
I pray for a miracle a sighting or his return to me
I pray that instead of going thru the motions with my other babies that I can find joy in them again

You don't know that it was him so it is not fair to make yourself suffer. There is one thing that perhaps we should think about. Creatures like birds and animals accept death in a way that is much harder for us. Once that moment comes they succumb almost readily and if that is what has happened then try to take comfort in the thought of him flying free and without a care. The worst thing perhaps, is the lack of closure, the wonder what has happened and if it is all over. If as you say he has not been seen or heard since then perhaps he is where there is no pain, no hunger no sorrow. Be kind to yourself. Things happen and we blame ourselves but things just happen. I hope you will start to remember the happy times, the amusing things about him soon but please please don't punish yourself. It was an accident and you have suffered for it. Take care. Remember the joy.

 

[fiddlejen]

You did Not bring Neptune to that area. You went to that area because that is where He was. Maybe Maybe it was not him that was caught—MAYBE maybe those hawks simply scared him far away. In any case, you did not cause the hawk to be there, and shooing it away, it would’ve only come back.

You are grieving. (So are your other birds by the way.) It’s natural to blame yourself when you’re grieving. But it only makes you feel worse. You’ve done everything you could. (And I’m sure you will continue to do everything you can.) Accepting that you’re grieving, does not mean that you’re giving up.

Right now, you don’t need to be “finding joy” in your other birds. They are grieving too. Believe it or not, they are “there for you,“ now. You don’t need to find joy in them right now. They are sad too. “Going thru motions” is fully enough. You can be sad together.

 

[noodles123]

I still think you should keep in touch with those in the area and beg them to keep watch--- between the 4th of July and the hawks, he may be hiding. I am not trying to give you false hope-- I really believe this is still possible, but I also know how exhausting it can be to keep waiting each day...You haven't failed. You have done a great job and you did everything you should have. In any scenario, hind-sight is 20/20, but at the same time, your actions could have protected him in ways you don't know--- sure, you yelling could attract him, but it could also cause a hawk to pause (they don't know you, you know?) I Have chased off birds and cats in my yard by yelling...
If the worst did happen, you did FAR better than most and way better than any bird would have done for another bird...honestly...but I just am not sure it is over...I hope that isn't upsetting to hear, but I just feel like he made it a month for sure--- so I'm not sure now is the time to fully give up...But again, I cannot imagine your pain and I am SO SO SO sorry that I cannot do more.
I would think about the last time he was sighted and the last time you heard him, and start the days missing count from there...

 

[Laurasea]

The nit knowing is the worse, I keep going there and very day and I will keep going

I met a jogger and he will look every day he jogs
I last heard him the 28

 

[noodles123]

The nit knowing is the worse, I keep going there and very day and I will keep going

I met a jogger and he will look every day he jogs
I last heard him the 28

Also- remember- he may have decided to move (while still in proximity to the feeders-- kind of like leaving a neighborhood 20 min from work for another neighborhood elsewhere that is still 20 min for work)...I would map a circle in my mind (with the feeders in mind) and talk to people within that radius/keep posting stuff etc...just in case! Again-- you know he made it for a chunk of time on his own and you know that there are reports of him not that long ago, which is why I say that all hope is not lost...I WISH I could give you resolution though, because I hate the idea of you having to worry and wonder each day.

 

[Laurasea]

And thank you all for the support every post shows the heart of this forum and the love we all share for our parrots and each other
This is the deepest ache I’ve ever felt , and it is my fault he got out, but man the tight u turn from a stand still he had to make, it still shocks me he pulled that off, it was something he must have thought about, sbd he flew so fast
All the people who saw him fly say he was so beautiful in flight, something I haven’t seen within the house
I pray he found/is finding joy

 

[Laurasea]

He is in a huge forest with a brackish creek that goes for miles and miles and miles like 60?

I have given and asked people to put out red chili peppers st their feeders, they are because my grocery store sold out the next day! Bless them all

 

[noodles123]

This pepper thing made me smile, even though this is a terrible situation. You are a great great great bird mom, and you are seriously doing everything right.

It is a little funny to think of all of the new birds who will develop a taste for chili peppers as a result of this---I mean sure, Neptune will get some, but he can't eat them ALL, which means that some random birds will have a new culinary experience

You are awesome and Neptune is very clearly loved.