Birdlover11, you sound so much like me when i was your age. By the way, unfortunately, i'm still phobic about medical things in general and need to be sedated for most everything. (oddly enough i'm not squeamish...like if someone were half maimed, i could care for them with a clear head and not be too grossed out. it's more that i don't like feeling 'helpless'.)
I also share with JerseyWendy that i hate lying, deceitfulness, etc. I handle frankness better than sugar coating in most circumstances. I think a lot of animal lovers hate lying.
I am a 'recovered speed-oholic'.

I used to not be able to help myself, driving at very high speeds, needing the 'rush'. I FORCED myself to get that under control because i don't want to hurt myself or anyone else (or get tickets). I used to have season passes to Six Flags each year and went on coasters most weekends to get my fill of the rush or i felt almost a withdrawl. I still tend to have a restless, independent streak in me but with age, it is way toned down!
***i just re-read this and said to myself....so what are you saying?? you are a nervous control freak??? hahaha