Hello fellow bird lovers. I am new to this site, just registered, because I finally am at the point to get this off my chest, so please bear with me. I just really need to put in writing how I feel. My name is Brett and, To put it bluntly, I killed my 3 and a half years old green cheek conure on Christmas night 2013. His name was Ricky and he was my best friend. It was obviously cold at this time of year in PA, and my furnace broke down. Knowing that my little buddy could be in danger I put him in his travel cage and went to my parent's house for the night to sleep. I only brought my very small travel cage so I took him out of it and let him have free roam of my old bedroom with the bedroom door closed, There was nothing in that room unsafe and I stayed with him in the room for the majority of time anyway. He perched on top of my dresser and eat and drank normally. Around 9pm, we watched Christmas vacation while he perched in my shoulder and preening my hair and we also shared some fruit. I went to bed at around 10 pm and he went up to the top of the dresser. I left the light on in my room so he wouldn't be scared. At around 5 am, I woke up and looked to my dresser to see how he was doing. He wasn't there and I started freaking out as I searched my room to find him. as the door was closed so he couldn't of gone anywhere. I finally looked under the pillow I was sleeping on and this is when the dagger went through my heart: he was under the pillow dead. The emotions I felt are hard to describe but it's along the lines of horrified and unbelievable sadness. I screamed and woke my parents up and my mom comforted my endless tears all morning. I buried him in my backyard which was hard because the ground was kind of frozen. So please do not sleep with your parrot or your parrot out of cage under ANY circumstances.
The heartbreak continues to this day, and I cannot seem to get over it. Multiple times a day I get that dagger through my heart feeling as so many thing remind me of him. There is no way I will be getting another bird anytime soon. The guilt and sadness I feel is unbearable and I have repealed in my previous drug addiction. I don't know what else to say and I don't know how to get over the fact that I killed my Ricky. I miss him very much and since he was my only parrot I ever had I don't know how to get over it.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out through my rambling and please do not, under any circumstances, sleep with your bird.
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The heartbreak continues to this day, and I cannot seem to get over it. Multiple times a day I get that dagger through my heart feeling as so many thing remind me of him. There is no way I will be getting another bird anytime soon. The guilt and sadness I feel is unbearable and I have repealed in my previous drug addiction. I don't know what else to say and I don't know how to get over the fact that I killed my Ricky. I miss him very much and since he was my only parrot I ever had I don't know how to get over it.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out through my rambling and please do not, under any circumstances, sleep with your bird.
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