Venting - non bird talk

[OttoVonRuthless]

Why does everything hit all at once? TIA, POTS, wheelchair/ bed bound, possible cancer, moving out, unreliable people, no transportation, terrible drs...
Is this payback for something I did in a previous life?
I'm so overwhelmed, I don't know how I'm going to make it through. I don't have support. I'm sorry.

 

[DonnaBudgie]

Are you going to have to leave Otto and go somewhere for help?

 

[OttoVonRuthless]

Are you going to have to leave Otto and go somewhere for help?

I don't know yet. Everything has been hurry up and wait.

 

[LaManuka]

Oh @OttoVonRuthless, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Don't be sorry, this is so very much for one person to handle and I would be more than a little freaked out if it was happening to me. I wish I could do more than offer you my prayers but you most certainly have those

 

[OttoVonRuthless]

Oh @OttoVonRuthless, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Don't be sorry, this is so very much for one person to handle and I would be more than a little freaked out if it was happening to me. I wish I could do more than offer you my prayers but you most certainly have those

Thank you!

 

[DonnaBudgie]

You aren't being punished. Bad things happen to good people. My sister's husband of 43 years died of a massive stroke 5 months ago at only 67 and previously healthy. My sister is shell shocked at the loss and asks the same questions about why. Why the only man she ever loved, her person, was taken from her so suddenly and so cruelly just as she was retiring to enjoy the good life. What did she do wrong? She still cries every day and asks why? It just happens. I wish you had a good in person support system because it makes a difference when suffering hits. You do have your Parrot Forum "family" even though we've never met you in person we feel like we have. We care. If you need help with Ollie just say the word.

 

[OttoVonRuthless]

To give a little context, my doctors ( mostly all new to me) are all on me to get these tests scheduled and done - then they don't have follow up appointments until end of September and October...Why did I have to hurry? No communication on my new diagnosis...
I scheduled my wheelchair accessible rides to my appointments this week, 2 weeks ago. My pick up for today was 1030 am, my appointment 11am. Driver calls 1045 says he'll be to me around 1115-1130... My dr office if you aren't at least 5 minutes early, you're being rescheduled. So I canceled that appointment.
Then I call to tell my insurance what happened and expressed concern on getting to my next 2 appointments on time because 3 out of 4 times I either had to cancel because they were late, not wheelchair accessible transportation or I arrived late and still was seen. Not a good track record. They then informed me I have no other rides scheduled and can't schedule these because they don't have 3 day notice...
I have to use this for transportation because my apt isn't handicap accessible and your taxi/ Lyft/ Uber drivers won't carry a foldable wheelchair up and down approximately 12 steps and help me safely down the steps.
Drs/ nurses/ social workers all telling me I'm not safe home alone because of my condition but resources to get me safe- crickets.

 

[AprilRobin]

I am so sorry to read this.

 

[Rozalka]

Oh no, I am sorry that all of these things have to happen to you

(writing it as someone who has a very sick grandma who also can't walk and is very depended on us, so you're not alone)

 

[GivemeSeedsorgivemeFlesh]

I am so sorry for all you are going through. I can also attest to the absolute garbage wheelchair transportation services. I was there at one time. I thank God I am not there now. Every time I walk up steps I am grateful I can. Hang in there. Hang on to every little good thing, even when it's overshadowed. I think that's what got me through it. Finding beauty in the seemingly invisible and clinging to it.

 

[rheashard2]

Take a deep breath. Give yourself a hug. Then ask questions pro and con. About testing, procedures and everything, anything you can think of. Hurry up and wait medicine practice comes across as ineffective no matter the medical skill. Then make your decisions. You have my hugs and . Now take a deep breath and give yourself a hug.