Skittys_Daddy
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- Jan 6, 2014
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Neotropical Pigeon - "Skittles" (born 3/29/10)
Cockatiel - "Peaches" (1995-2015) R.I.P.
Budgie - "Sammy"
(1989-2000) R.I.P.
Budgie - "Sandy"
(1987-1989) R.I.P.
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I told my therapist that I felt guilty for not doing more to save her or prolong her life. But she wasn't the Peaches I remember and hasn't been for quite a few years. It felt like I was losing her in stages and it just prolonged the suffering. I feel guilty for feeling relieved that she is passed.
I went through similar feelings when my grandmother passed as well as my father. Both were in a lot of pain. But I didn't get the feelings of guilt after. I knew they wanted to go. With Peaches, I've no way of knowing how she felt, did she know how much I love her and how much she'll be missed? I wish I had one more chance to say that. I didn't the night she passed. I wish I had.
After what I went through with my 11 y/o budgie Sammy and doing everything I could to prolong his life (which only led to prolonging his suffering) I didn't want to do that to Peaches. I didn't want to prolong her suffering and I thought I'd have to have her put down this Spring
I told my therapist that so many days I would say to myself, enough of this already. It was like having a bandaid slowly pulled off and I just wanted it over and done with. I just got used to pretending it wasn't happening and going on with my day. I guess it was how I coped. I don't know.
I just hope that wherever she is, that Sammy is keeping her company. I like to think of that. The two of them, together. She's not alone.
I went through similar feelings when my grandmother passed as well as my father. Both were in a lot of pain. But I didn't get the feelings of guilt after. I knew they wanted to go. With Peaches, I've no way of knowing how she felt, did she know how much I love her and how much she'll be missed? I wish I had one more chance to say that. I didn't the night she passed. I wish I had.
After what I went through with my 11 y/o budgie Sammy and doing everything I could to prolong his life (which only led to prolonging his suffering) I didn't want to do that to Peaches. I didn't want to prolong her suffering and I thought I'd have to have her put down this Spring
I told my therapist that so many days I would say to myself, enough of this already. It was like having a bandaid slowly pulled off and I just wanted it over and done with. I just got used to pretending it wasn't happening and going on with my day. I guess it was how I coped. I don't know.
I just hope that wherever she is, that Sammy is keeping her company. I like to think of that. The two of them, together. She's not alone.