lschlatter
New member
- Mar 28, 2024
- 5
- 21
- Parrots
- green cheeked conure
Hello everyone, I feel like the worst possible person alive, as I slept with my GCC and I crushed her.
Her name was Honey, and I never did a gender test, but the vet said Honey acted like a female. I had her for 4 years and slept with her at night for 3. I didn't sleep with her consistently until recently, and I wish I would've come across this website before it was too late. 2 days ago, I woke up to Honey lifeless next to me. The worst part is, i'm pretty sure I know the exact moment it happened because I woke up slightly at 4am and heard her squawk lightly, not thinking anything of it and went back to sleep. I woke up an hour later to get ready for work and found her. She was my entire world, and as much as my family is trying to help me, they just don't understand. I knew better but I still slept with her, and the sound she made haunts me. I hear it almost constantly, especially at night. I did everything with her when I got ready for work in the morning, and I've never felt more alone than I do now. Her absence is more gutting than anything I've ever experienced before. I thought I knew what heart break felt like, but this is so much worse. The silence in my apartment in defanging, and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I can't say any of this to the friends and family around me, as I said before they just don't understand as they never had a bird before. I guess I just needed to get this out, so someone knew how I felt. I know I will want another GCC eventually, however I don't know if or when I'll get over this, or ever trust myself with another bird again. I buried her 1 day ago and it still doesn't seem real that she is gone. Does it ever get better?
Her name was Honey, and I never did a gender test, but the vet said Honey acted like a female. I had her for 4 years and slept with her at night for 3. I didn't sleep with her consistently until recently, and I wish I would've come across this website before it was too late. 2 days ago, I woke up to Honey lifeless next to me. The worst part is, i'm pretty sure I know the exact moment it happened because I woke up slightly at 4am and heard her squawk lightly, not thinking anything of it and went back to sleep. I woke up an hour later to get ready for work and found her. She was my entire world, and as much as my family is trying to help me, they just don't understand. I knew better but I still slept with her, and the sound she made haunts me. I hear it almost constantly, especially at night. I did everything with her when I got ready for work in the morning, and I've never felt more alone than I do now. Her absence is more gutting than anything I've ever experienced before. I thought I knew what heart break felt like, but this is so much worse. The silence in my apartment in defanging, and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I can't say any of this to the friends and family around me, as I said before they just don't understand as they never had a bird before. I guess I just needed to get this out, so someone knew how I felt. I know I will want another GCC eventually, however I don't know if or when I'll get over this, or ever trust myself with another bird again. I buried her 1 day ago and it still doesn't seem real that she is gone. Does it ever get better?