Allee
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Deepest condolences for your loss of Cookie, I'm so very sorry. I'm glad Cookie's last days were happy ones, I hope all the sweet memories will comfort you.
I was feeding the birds on autopilot this morning. I got to the spot where Cookie's cage was* and burst into tears all over again. It's just so weird and awful to not see him and hear him. The morning birdie chorus is so quiet. He and Leo would always sing loudly to greet the sun. Leo didn't sing much this morning.
*I couldn't handle seeing the empty cage so MrC moved it into storage.
Sorry for your loss. The hurt is deeper because you were intimately involved and Cookie was literally a part of you thru routine and caretaking. And although the pain is real, it's also a validation of your relationship. A badge of honor if you will. The pain will soften over time. The others will begin acting normally again, and then the softer, more liberating memories will be what's left. Thanks for your commitment to help Cookie finish the race with dignity and love.Thanks. I appreciate it. I think this is just going to be a time thing. Cookie was so old, so this was not unexpected, but when reality hits you, it's just hard. The changes in routine and just missing his general presence are going to take some getting used to. I find myself seriously contemplating bringing home the bare eyed cockatoo I'm visiting earlier than planned, but then give myself a reality check in regards to upsetting Charlotte. I'm sure I'll be fine in a few days (though still sad). It's just that this first morning of not feeding him was rough.