Tiki died in my arms

[RainbowRose]

I fought for him paid hundreds in vet bills but he didn't make it And he was so young please I need advice I have never hurt so much in my life over a pet, he and I were so bonded I feel lost and alone and my room is empty

 

[Kiwibird]

I'm so sorry to hear Tiki passed away You did everything you could for him, it was just his time to fly free. Do you have a favorite photo of him and some beautiful feathers you could put in a nice frame to always remember him?

 

[RavensGryf]

I'm very sorry to hear about Tiki yes, it is very hard. I like the suggestion of making some kind of art piece to frame in his remembrance.

 

[strudel]

So very, very sorry. Tiki knew you loved him and wanted the best for him.

 

[Allee]

I'm very sorry for your loss of Tiki. I know he was loved and will be remembered forever.

 

[Scott]

I'm very sorry and sad Tiki passed away despite your efforts posted in another thread. The ache of grieving is dreadful but will ease over time, though you will never forget Tiki.

I too have found picture remembrances helpful. One is too many, but I have several 8 x 10 pictures in frames with a few feathers between the print and the glass. Another thought is cremation with the remains stored in a small cedar chest. Whatever you do must be comforting within your belief system.

 

[Birdman666]

I'm sorry. I know what you are going through. I've been there myself, more than once...

You did everything you could for him. And he was loved. Could any of us ask for more?

 

[Christinenc2000]

I am sorry .

 

[RainbowRose]

It hurts so bad I feel lost

I just feel like he thinks I betrayed him cuz I held him when he passed n he trusted me so I'm afraid his last thoughts were bad of me. But I tried so hard Any options available I took.

My sister heard me and came running into my room and literally had to rip me away from him because I was hugging him and crying hysterically I didn't want to let him go.

I am at a pet cemetery right now having him cremated. I don't care how much it cost I want him with me. I took a red feather from his crown and a green feather from his body and I will put those with some ashes into an urn necklace. The rest will be in a box or jar I will decorate with his photo and a big feather I took from him. I will decorate it with my favorite photo of us and More.

I just hope he knows I had to let him go because he was miserable. Everyone was like oh he looks fine he looks good and I'm like no. He's not. Eating and drinking and that's all is no way to live. He hasn't chirped since July, the anemia the cause of it all, hasn't bathed, falls off perches, recently began getting sick throwing up, lethargic sleeping all day everyday. He was miserable. Just because a bird doesn't have severe physical pain doesn't mean they aren't suffering. He was suffering. I know him, I knew him, I loved him and always will.

So I want him with me forever and always. That is why I chose cremation.

This hurts so unbearably I feel lost and alone and there is nothing worse than an empty cage. I have it covered until I'm ready for a new bird...

 

[Dopey]

I am so sorry. There aren't any words that will make it better for you but know that we are thinking of you.

 

[bonita]

Dear RainbowRose, There are no words that can calm your grief. I've been there myself over the years with birds and dogs. Think about the good times you had together and know that his life was enriched because of you. People or pet our times are ultimately in Gods hands. It was his time to fly free. I will pray for your peace. Some times getting a new pet helps the grief. It not replacing Tiki it's moving on and living. It's up to individual feelings. I lost my dog years ago and rescued a puppy a week later. In Shera's memory I saved a life. I had Mookie for 17 years. It helped my grief. Praying you find your way thru. Bonita

 

[Terry57]

I am so sorry to hear about Tiki. I know that he knew how much he was loved, and that you did everything you possibly could to help him. My heart goes out to you

 

[Timothy]

In the wild, birds will remove from the flock any ill or injured bird. Sometimes they will even finish the job themselves (In order to protect the flock)

He knows that you stayed with him til the last moment. He knows that you did not abandon him. He knows that you loved him. Be comforted in the fact that he realized just how special he was to you, and how tight your bond was.

Tiki will be Missed. Bless his soul.

 

[RainbowRose]

Thank you all for the kind words. It is you guys here on parrotforums that understand these feelings the most. So your words are the most comforting. Tiki was cremated and I spent my afternoon making my own necklace of his color to put some of his ashes in. The rest are also in a green tin of his color that I will decorate.



Having a part of him with me is giving me the strength to live on without him. So ultimately it is a symbol of strength brought to me by my beloved baby. I miss him deeply.

Also, I realized the day I met him a pet store owner just quickly handed him to me off guard and I cuddled him to my chest and immediately fell in love. So our first and last moment together was exactly the same. I thought that was nice.

 

[Scott]

I am so touched by your intense dedication to Tiki and his memory. The necklace is beautiful but most importantly will help you cope with the loss. You strike me as such an emotionally mature and resolute person; in time you will again love another parrot and in turn be justly rewarded.

 

[RavensGryf]

That is a beautiful necklace, you are talented to make it! I love the idea of a keepsake to keep close to you forever like that.

 

[mtdoramike]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. My heart goes out to you.

 

[Kiwibird]

That's a beautiful memorial to Tiki. He will always be close to your heart.

 

[antoinette]

So sorry for you losing Tiki
You did everything possible NEVER FORGET THAT
Fly Free Tiki

 

[Chipper10]

So sorry for your loss. Only time will ease your grief. You will feel better tho, it just takes time. Tiki is in a better place and I'm sure placed no blame upon you, if anything was likely comforted by your presence