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This can't be the hardest thing that I've ever done, but it sure feels like it is. I drove my kids to school this morning and still couldn't bring myself to turn in the withdrawal letter. Sigh. I need to do this today. Building up the courage to do it is the hardest part.
Last night I looked at pics and messages about battered women. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not safe and that this is the first step toward freedom and safety. It's the first time that I'm truly, truly committed to ending this wreck of a relationship. Hope is something that I'm not accustomed to. Despair has been my daily companion for so long. I just have to believe that life doesn't have to be this way. I'm in a prison cell and the key is right in front of me and I'm so afraid to use it.
Last night I looked at pics and messages about battered women. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not safe and that this is the first step toward freedom and safety. It's the first time that I'm truly, truly committed to ending this wreck of a relationship. Hope is something that I'm not accustomed to. Despair has been my daily companion for so long. I just have to believe that life doesn't have to be this way. I'm in a prison cell and the key is right in front of me and I'm so afraid to use it.
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your about to open a door that you've kept closed for a long time.
facing your issue with the school, is going to be very hard, you may burst into tears when you do this....but so what. who cares what they think.
hopefully they will support you 100%, and do what is best for your children.
good luck Phoebe, I so wish someone was with you to support you!
facing your issue with the school, is going to be very hard, you may burst into tears when you do this....but so what. who cares what they think.
hopefully they will support you 100%, and do what is best for your children.
good luck Phoebe, I so wish someone was with you to support you!
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You have the power Phoebe. You are strong, you can do it! Just remember why you're doing this.. to protect yourself and your children. If you are safe and happy, the kids will see that and they too will feel safe and happy. Just grab that key, take a breath, open the door, and then you'll wonder why on earth you ever hesitated. ^^ *hugs* Good luck phoebs.
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You have been in my thoughts and prayers Phoebe. Good luck with turning in your letter. Just remember, you are strong and you can do this! Hugs my friend!
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I too lived with abuse for too long..... Left one mentally abusive relationship for a mentally and physically abusive one. And I thought I was a pretty smart girl. I won't even go into any details, just let me say that you can do this and you should do this. I am impressed by all the good advice you have been getting here. See, people do care. I stayed forever because he made leaving so hard. turned everyone against me, made everyone afraid to help me, etc.
Finally, at 40 yrs old I became a human again. Found a life for myself and was able to mend my broken relationships with my five children. They are grown now and we are very close, but that wasn't always the case because I let my abusers take even that from me.....
Hold strong to your kids and pets and most of all YOURSELF!!
YOU CAN DO THIS. you all deserve a life free from pain. Ask for help whenever you need it, do what works best for you guys and don't worry about the details they will work themselves out. Go forward and don't look back. Things will be hard but they will get better, I promise!!
The best of life to you and yours. Remember YOU CAN DO THIS!!
Finally, at 40 yrs old I became a human again. Found a life for myself and was able to mend my broken relationships with my five children. They are grown now and we are very close, but that wasn't always the case because I let my abusers take even that from me.....
Hold strong to your kids and pets and most of all YOURSELF!!
YOU CAN DO THIS. you all deserve a life free from pain. Ask for help whenever you need it, do what works best for you guys and don't worry about the details they will work themselves out. Go forward and don't look back. Things will be hard but they will get better, I promise!!
The best of life to you and yours. Remember YOU CAN DO THIS!!
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Sassy, thank you for sharing. Your story is inspiring and gives me hope. It truly does. I feel "sub-human right now".
Crimson... your encouragement helped me to finally get up the courage to turn in the letter. After arriving at the school yesterday afternoon, the secretary caught me. She informed me that the headmaster wished to meet before I turned in the withdrawal letter, and if it was possible to meet with him the next day. I agreed, but worried all night and morning. What would I say when he brought up my domestic violence situation? I had given the female administrator permission to share my circumstances with him, but now we were going to sit for a face to face and I was absolutely nervous.
Well, I walked in, head hung in shame that these people knew something so embarassing about me.
Well, anyhow, the meeting went very well. He let me know that he was aware that I was going through personal difficulties that involved my safety and stated that he was aware of my plan to withdraw one or both kids.
I explained that this was where I was stuck, since leaving one child would mean that it would take me longer to leave my husband.
He went on to inform me that he and the other administrator really wanted to help so that both kids could stay on. He asked how much I could afford monthly and I showed him my "leave one kid in school budget". Much to my shock, he told me that both kids could stay if I paid that amount monthly. He said that he felt as if God had placed the kids there for a reason and that with God's help it would all work out (Christian based school). I had tears streaming down my face as I accepted and thanked him. It was all quite overwhelming.
Now, of course, I will be stuck with Eddie a bit longer, as I need to pay off a bit of debt before he leaves. I'm not happy about that at all, as I don't trust his promises that he will not ever again harm me. That's been his mantra for a while. Sigh.
This is great news and simultaneously bad news. I just couldn't turn down this chance to keep both kids happy and in their school. Yet, I'm disappointed that I'm in danger a bit longer. This is the first time in 17 or 18 years that I actually "believe" that I'm not safe. This sux and it's awesome too.
This weekend, time for me to work on ANOTHER new budget, to get him out ASAP.
Crimson... your encouragement helped me to finally get up the courage to turn in the letter. After arriving at the school yesterday afternoon, the secretary caught me. She informed me that the headmaster wished to meet before I turned in the withdrawal letter, and if it was possible to meet with him the next day. I agreed, but worried all night and morning. What would I say when he brought up my domestic violence situation? I had given the female administrator permission to share my circumstances with him, but now we were going to sit for a face to face and I was absolutely nervous.
Well, I walked in, head hung in shame that these people knew something so embarassing about me.
Well, anyhow, the meeting went very well. He let me know that he was aware that I was going through personal difficulties that involved my safety and stated that he was aware of my plan to withdraw one or both kids.
I explained that this was where I was stuck, since leaving one child would mean that it would take me longer to leave my husband.
He went on to inform me that he and the other administrator really wanted to help so that both kids could stay on. He asked how much I could afford monthly and I showed him my "leave one kid in school budget". Much to my shock, he told me that both kids could stay if I paid that amount monthly. He said that he felt as if God had placed the kids there for a reason and that with God's help it would all work out (Christian based school). I had tears streaming down my face as I accepted and thanked him. It was all quite overwhelming.
Now, of course, I will be stuck with Eddie a bit longer, as I need to pay off a bit of debt before he leaves. I'm not happy about that at all, as I don't trust his promises that he will not ever again harm me. That's been his mantra for a while. Sigh.
This is great news and simultaneously bad news. I just couldn't turn down this chance to keep both kids happy and in their school. Yet, I'm disappointed that I'm in danger a bit longer. This is the first time in 17 or 18 years that I actually "believe" that I'm not safe. This sux and it's awesome too.
This weekend, time for me to work on ANOTHER new budget, to get him out ASAP.
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That's amazing the school was kind enough to do that! I bet your kids are so happy! It does suck that it means Eddie will be there longer
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It is great news overall!! It is moving in the right direction for you. Ride that wave of positive energy until you are safely at the shore.
So far you're getting what you want, and thats your kids to be happy in their schoolings. Work on your budget, pay your debt, stay safe and then scram. You don't stay there for a single second longer than you have to.
I'm so glad to hear the school is working with you -looks like you won't have to turn in that withdrawal letter after all!!Most Reactions
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