Emily, please don't think that any of us are criticizing you or your decisions in any way. All of us that have followed this thread only want the best possible outcome for you and Cookie.
When I got her I never thought she would be so smart and funny. I also never thought I would like her so much. Four years with her might not seem like a long time, but it feels like she has always been here.
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- Emily.
We read your words and they touched our hearts. We understand what a difficult experience you are going through. I'm sure no one is questioning your love for Cookie. We are here for you and from your posts and pics, we see reason to hope you and Cookie can be together for longer than you may think. Sometimes that's hard to see when you are going through so much emotional pain.
Several years ago, my family took in a very ill eclectus, after extensive tests, his vet told us there was no cure, but a lot we could do to make him comfortable. He was a very sad case. His liver was destroyed from eight years of long term starvation. The damage couldn't be undone but a prescription soft diet and various meds gave him the best eight months of his life. He made friends, learned new words, played and interacted with us. Everyone that met him, adored him and his last eight months were priceless.