I am just reading this.. the unknown is so hard to face. Laura, I see your posts to others, so full of care and wisdom. Any bird of yours is a lucky bird.
Long ago, I went away to school. I came home to find my best friend Buddy had flown away in a thunderstorm. He was just a little guy, a peach face lovebird. We never found a clue, he just disappeared into the aether. I was back in my hometown last year, standing in line at the post office, and this guy in line asked me "Didn't you lose a bird some 15 years ago? A little green and pink one. My daughter had one fly down to her from a tree around that time. She kept him and loved him for awhile, and then one day he escaped out the window again." Who knows if it is true, or if it was my boy? But maybe he had many more adventures after me. And to hear of him again after so much time had passed warmed my heart.
You are in my thoughts, and Neptune too.